I will have a case of the FLU with a shot of pneumonia please

Yah know...Ever since Brandi said I come up with the most interesting titles for my blog entries I've been what I consider on a real down hill slide... I know it's not a big deal but dammit I want to have witty titles... I think at this point I would just settle for something to in the title bar.

So far that is the only downside of blogger...

P.S. my day sucked...

Yeah, we saw rain, wind, more wind, 60mph wind, and yet more rain this morning. It blew one of our wireless antenna's we use to connect a remote site over... So Mike and I spent the better part of the day trying to get the new wireless system running and fixing the existing one...

WE were both cold wet and cranky when the day was done with... But the wireless got fixed thanks to the guys down in plant ops.

Yes I know I just violated my whole no work talking on blog rule... Don't care... It's not your blog and anyway the only person that comes here is Blair... I think I don't know probally my whole department comes here who knows. All I know is I'm still cold at least I'm not cold and wet that would suck beyond all recognition.

Been playing Half-Life 2 quite a bit... I'm really thinking that this is the single best game I've played in a long long long time. Doom3 was good.. Far Cry has it's moments. Half-Life 2 really is the shit. Of course you need to have a pretty good system and even more awesome video card to run it right now (don't worry kids I'm sure it will work with your video card in a year or two). If you have not bought this game do so.

Ever been in a mood and you know you want to listen to music but you don't know what kind of music because you are all punked out... heavy metal is to heavy... Tool makes you think harder then you want to, and Pearl Jam is just annoying? Yeah that mood, so of course I'm listenting to Pearl Jam at the moment but it's just one song a whole list of songs... so it will pass.

EVE... Good game.. if nothing else it will keep you occupied in trying to figure out what the hell you want to do with your character after some 30 million hours of playing... the game is that big.

Ya know I think Curtis was on to something when he said "I want to play a game where the only resource I have to worry about is ammo" Well said Curtis well said indeed.

Into the wild blue next year... Or something like that...

Well the new year is quickly approaching us... And I guess it's time for a new years resolution.


I know I know I never make one... I actually did make one last year... I resolved to stop drinking coke at home and cut down at work... Well I'm now down to 1 cup a day at work and nothing at home 99% of the time. I'm doing pretty well on that one if I do say so myself.

I thought about doing the whole no caffeine thing.. But yeah that would just make me crankier then I already am and really lets face it if you can't have coffee in the morning there really is just no reason to be getting out of bed. So I'm making a resolution that I'm pretty sure I can keep. Yes I'm going to drink more beer!

Hey don't laugh at least I have new years resolution.

1 day and I feel fine...

So I found this on Yahoo tonight when I got in from church...


[21:37] thevampire_kain: Here I am again...tired from not sleeping...Sad from not loving. I feel miserable again...here on this plane...Here on this earth. I've done it again...I stayed out all night. I feel it again...I dred this flight. Why? Because I'm sick...Sick of being owned... I write because I'm sick...Sick of being known. If I was normal...Would she like me the same? If I was just a stock boy...Would she still enjoy my name? I'd like to think she does and would...I believe in her and believe in me she should. I'm gonna lean my head against this window...Close my eyes and go to sleep. I'll wake up in the next town...With thoughts beyond deep. The days will go by as I will just act. As the days go by I can only look back...At the good times...the fun. At the bad times...the fun

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How come all the weirdo's use yahoo and why do they message me?

2 days and I have got to get some work done

Friends theme song...

Curtis-- Ghost riders in the sky; Johnny Cash

Kristina -- Judith; A Perfect Circle

Matt -- Refused are fucking dead; Refused

Kristi -- High Hopes; Pink Floyd

Scott (lil brother) -- Battle with out honor; Tomoyasu Hotei

Brandi -- Holiday in Cambodia; Richard Cheese

Clint -- First cool hive; Moby

Aaron -- I believe in miracles; Ramones

Andrea -- I believe in miracles; Pearl Jam

Shawn -- They call me tater salad; Ron White

Ada -- Ireland & Health; Lewis Black

in no particular order.. not represintive of the person just what seems to go through my mind when I see them or for some reason associate this particular piece of whatever with them

All files can be purchased on iTunes... just in case you are curious.

3 days...

I'm coming down with something... and it's not good what ever it is....

This is a good lesson to you kids... don't head bang with the window down when it's 40 outside and the wind is blowing... espically when you are wearing a t-shirt and shorts in a moving vechile.

oh this is starting to suck

4 Days and I sure could use a drink...

Being on call means one thing to me... I can't drink as much as I like... and since I like to drink (thats what I get for liking beer so much) I don't drink when I'm on call generally.


I need a guiness.

5 days and I realize that being a zonie isn't so bad...

One of the things that I really like about myself is that I take a active intrest in news and current events... more international then local, hey at least I'm mostly up with the news. I know my friends recognize this since every now and again they will ask me for a update on some obscure thing and belive it or not I generally tend to seem to know something about it.

So I was watching TV tonight and Horizon's had it's yearly editoral cartoon writer show. It's kind of neat for me since I've been watching horizons for about 10 years (yes I know I'm a geek but hey it's the only show that I can semi-level headed feedback about issues effecting Arizona (though any more Arizona means Phoenix/Tucson). I've always like the end of the year political cartoonist show... the end of year is upon us and Steve Benson comes out of his hole... much like a certain ground hog the first tuesday in feburary.

Tonight I also realized that if your local (and when I say local I mean a native of Arizona... and I know there aren't that many of us around). You've probally read Benson on more the one occasion. Benson is one of those Arizona instutions like Wallace and Ladmo... or Mighty Mud Mania. You know that kind of thing.

And all the people who come here from places other then Arizona have no clue what I'm talking about. Just know that I will always be bitter because I never got a Ladmo-Bag.

6 days and I feel old

So this weekend has been a rewind weekend on x107.5 "xtreme radio" out of vegas. The most depressing part about this weekend is 1. This is all the music I like. 2. I have most of the CD's these songs were on orginally. 3. Nine Inch Nails now has a best of out... they have 3 freaking records how could they have a best of already? So I've been feeling very old all weekend.

I don't there just seems to be something unholy about music from High School being apart of a rewind weekend. I think most of my music should in no way or shape be classfied as "rewind". Personal thought there...

And as I sit here thinking... the last CD I bought was A Perfect Circle... everything after that has been off of iTunes. When I buy a CD there is something tangiable... when I get music off of iTunes there is nothing tangiable... just a file on my computer. I keep a back up but it's just not the same as having the liner notes and all. With iTunes (and all online music stores) the music seems somehow more disposable then it did before... much like a bridesmaid dress.... to be loved intensily for a short period of time then filed away somewhere on a harddrive where it may or may not be played again.

Just something not quite right about it is all.

I don't know... I still love my iPod though :)

And the winner is....

OK so after a alot of time of screwing around with this... I came to the decsion 30 seconds ago... that the blogspot blog thingy will now be my primary creative and or otherwise "soap box"


So if your looking for the sarcastic ramblings of one sarcasticly sick and twisted person look no farther....


And for a good time call my brother he's desperate and will date anything with a pulse... and long legs.


I'm pretty sure the legs thing is optional... come to think of it so is the pulse.

Top 10 signs that you play to many video games...

10. You know the frustration of having to figure out which button is RELOAD/CHANGEWEAPON/USE ITEM in every FPS out there since now two have the same setup

9. You talk about your RPG adventures with friends

8. Your friends tell you about their RPG adventures

7. You have the approx number of hits to take out a enemy figured out after the second kill

6. Your entire body moves when your trying to avoid an enemy in a FPS

5. You remember when game manuals used to be novels

4. You still have a few of the game manual / novels lying around and you read them during potty breaks

3. Your significant other thinks your gaming habit is "cute"

2. MMORPG du-jour isn't just a game it's a way of life for 6 months to a year

1. Finally... if your reading this and thinking to yourself the something in here sounds very very familiar.

Welcome to my world.

Pain in the Ass

Man what a pain in the ass Steam is...


All I have to say is this had better not screw up half-life in a couple of years.

Lord of the answering machine...

I'm pretty sure that I've stated on several occasions that I live alone.... as a direct result of this I have alot of time in the evenings and weekends to think about stuff. And I mean ALOT of time! So instead of thinking of ways to solve world hunger, over population, wal-mart spreading like the plauge, or how to make the Cardinals win more. I devote alot of time my answering machine messages.

Did I mention that my friends hate calling me because the message gets old after the 5th or 6th time.

Anyway I've also found that my answering machines messages are a great way to make sure no one and I mean no one leaves a message on my machine unless they really want to talk to me. It certainly does help cut down on the amount of crap I have to wade through. Though it really didn't help during the election... I'm sure more then a few campaign callers were more then a bit annoyed at me.

So once again I prove to everyone that living alone is probally a pretty dangerous thing. AT the very least it's hazerdous to your sense of humor.



Kind of like the picture...

Photo time....

So since I've got the whole no talking about work thing going on I thought I would do my bi-yearly break with that "rule" and show you something completely different.

This is a honest to god picture of me working...





Damn I'm a sexy best :) <--- notice the dripping sarcasm

Tech support rates....

1st call 1 case of beer (sam adams) (12 pack bottles)

2nd call 1 case of beer (guiness) (12 pack bottles)

3rd call 2 shots of whiskey a gun and a bullet.

4th call... your on your own.

Bring out the P.C. police...I'm feeling an urge

The holidays are on us once again yes it's that time of year again in the words of Heidi "To buy crap that no one needs and get crap you don't want" Well spoken Heidi, as for me this time of year brings out my Politely Correct side... Every time I see a "Happy Holidays" it's everything I can do to keep my self from going "HAPPY FUCKING HANUKKAH... Prick" Yes I know I'm not Jewish... Yes I know I shouldn't get worked up about it... And honestly I don't get that worked up about it. Just enough to elevate my blood pressure slightly more then it already is.

Normally I'm the first to bash being politically correct... and if you've been around me for any length time you will know that I tend to really not care about being P.C... There is just something about the holidays that brings it all out of me. In one giant rush. I can't explain it... it's almost like a release for me.

I could really have some fun with this if I were atheist. Ohh the possibilities.

Next time on chatting with Tom the religious right... and not just Christians either...

Dammit....

Dammit.... I picked up EVE again.... after I dropped it a month ago... dammit dammit dammit.

Again with the blogging....

Oh I must be bored... two nights in a row... and wouldn't you know it all about the same damn thing too!

Aren't you lucky... then again your the one reading this unless you happen to be one of those "Blogspot" surfers who just happen to hit the "next blog button" (if you have not hit the next blog button you will find it at the upper right of your browser and your really should hit it)

Yeah I broke out farcry tonight.... I'm so out of that game right now it's not even funny... totally diffrent in style you need to have for Doom3. I can only guess that Half-Life will be just as diffrent once I get around to picking it up. Just not real hip on the concept of steam at the moment. I don't know... something about the possiblity of not being able to play the game in 5 years does not appeal to me.

And of course now your asking when was the last time you played a game that was more then 5 years old? Simple last week I broke out the N64 and went to town. Goldeneye still rocks.

Man it is getting cold in hell... no hell has not frozen over but I had 2 thoughts this morning going to my car....
1. it's fucking cold
2. It's cold as fuck

Yes alot of content in my thought process don't you know.

I really do like blogging like this way more then the old way... I just need to get back to calling it everything but blogging but really what is it?

I don't know....

Damn

My name is...

Hi my name is Tom, (name not changed to incriminate the guilty)

and I'm additicated to blogging.

Not just reading other peoples musing or what ever is going on in their lives, but also the whole aspect of creating and writing.

It all started about 4 years ago when I was in college. I was expermenting with various things (among them LINUX and AMD processors) and I started blogging. At first it wasn't even called blogging it was something else. Then little by little I started to reveal little parts of myself to the world. First it was everynight and I burned out then about once a week and then about once a month or so. Finally I fell into a pattern of about once a week blogging sometimes more very rarely less though. Then slowly over the course of the years I watched as other friends did their blogging. Pretty soon we started to keep up with each other through our blogs and before long before you went over to someone's house you had to check and make sure they hadn't updated their blog.

I now find myself reading blogs daily. Whether it be from my friends to the latest talking head on CNN. Blogging is a huge part of my daily routine, I have stopped watching the news I now read all the news I want on the internet. I don't watch TV I use the computer as my main means of entertainment whether it be a blog or a game. Something about watching BLING BLING IN 2004 on VH-1 just really doesn't appeal to me.

So again my name is Tom and I'm a blogger for better or worse I'm out here.

DOOMing...

Playing Doom3 tonight (good game by the way if you get a chance pick it up and play it... if nothing else it will scare the living daylights out of you 4 or 5 hundred times)

I noticed a few things.

1. Even in a state of total and utter disaster all OSHA laws are obyed on mars.

2. The ammount of ammo you have to use is directly related to how much you waste when you are shooting at enemies.

3. Could it have killed someone to put locks on all of these closetes?

Trippin on tryptophan

Say the above titel in the vein of Pauly Shore's the "Weazel" and then you will know how I feel right now.

I have never done drugs.... but I swear I only ever have this light headed and sleepy feeling after Thankgiving and Christmas.... whats more I have the munchies... I know I'm full my stomach feels full. But yet I still eat... just snacking really. Yeah you got to love that Tryptophan high..

As I'm watching TV last night I see a comercial for the new mustang... and the comercial is the Mustang revving it's engine to about the national anthem. They are showing shots of the interior and the outside. And I actually think to myself.. I would be so patriotic if I bought that car today. Then I snapped back to reality after I took a hit of my super cynical meds. That made me feel better about me but not so great about the car.

So I'm drinking a Guiness and I actually feel physically full from drinking it. It's really sad. Again with the munchies.

It's Thanksgiving and everyone and their brother is giving thanks in the their online journal thingies about various and assorted things. I now would like to present to you a partial selection from 1999. This list is entitled the "Hate List" and was done by one B. Hudson. I like to trot this out about once a year or so and just to remind everyone. You can be pissed off, but no one is as pissed off as Bruce.

Now for your reading pleasure... "The Hate List"
Things/ people I hate.
I hate:


TLC! I HATE THEM ALL OF THEM!
The Backsteet Boys
Fox Racing
Team Losie Racing
fags
cats
mama's boys
foreign four/six cylinder cars
spaghetti
98degrees and rising
cow launchers
the drive home
Suzuki’s
good gas mileage
mornings
having to dishes
going to bed early
talking to myself
cooking
vegetables
little sandwiches
goats milk
liver
the flue
Oklahoma (the state)
musicals
foreign countries who think they are important
the marines
sergeant barns
my jumping beans
loud mouth women
opera
rap
low-riders
people who drive low-riders
bunny huggers
alfalfa oh that is a vegetable
tuna
golf
tennis
football, oh ya, that falls under mama's boys
people who think they can ride
people who think they can drive
boats
NAU
speed limits
speeding tickets
parking tickets
pills
friends who end up being enemies
ants no bugs in general
snakes
the price of gas
my computer
AOL
spoofs
scary movies
people thinking pierce is the best bond
Rickey martin
my ability to spell
raw meat
comic strips other than Calvin and Hobbes
all four wheel drive four wheelers
actually, all four wheelers
the ban on three wheelers
the y2k scare
pointless conversation
lack of conversation
ECE-100
lack of road kill
spending money
the lack of a date for Saturday nights
alarm clocks
excess of caffeine
laundry
people who are cocky
quite music
the new scooby-doo movie (it is a joke)
the tella tubies
barney
pokemon
beanie babies
jewel
finals
getting a hair cut
birds
math homework



That is just the first two pages... it goes on for another 5 pages like that. I don't want to make everyone to terribly depressed.

Ok all happy Thankgiving and may the "Shwartz" TM be with you tommrow if you are actually going to try and do some shopping.

Hell has frozen over... kind of.. not really more like it's a bad snow job

Woke up this morning to a couple of inches of snow on the ground... that was a nice suprise. But I ordered the snow for the week before christmas not the week of thanksgiving. Man I tell you what the people responsible for snow have no concept of a proper delviery time frame these days.

Friday night...

So you know your a geek when...

Your correct someone about how to count... you always start with ZERO not one....

ya know it was cooler in person you just had to have been there.


Enterprise... when did this show actually become watchable? It's not TNG good by no means... but it is watchable. Actually it's better then V'yger... not as good as DS9 but it is trying to get to that level.

I think I finally have my blood stream back....

I gave up Coke (at home) almost a year ago... Do I feel better? No not really... Have I lost weight? No (I replaced coke with BEER!).... So why not drink coke... simple my caffiene intake is now in half and I'm not as high strung anymore... I use the term high strun with great relativity... compared to a few people at work I still have the speed of a hummingbird and sometimes the mentality of one too.. I need to drink more beer.

/getBEER!
/getBEER!/drink.bin

That right there folks was an attempt at geek humor if you don't get it don't worry neither do I.

I am drinking a beer though.

So I'm really liking this blogger thing and I'm serioursly considering on shuttering the other site and going to just this... I don't know though part of me likes have the anal-retentavie control that I have over the other site. I don't know it's a thought and this is much easier for me then the other site.... PLUS I can email blogger to a special super-secret address that only I know (well me and whatever sysadmin looks at my account) For some reason this just seems a bit more cathartic.... much like the orginal semi-journal did way back in 2000... shit I've been doing this for 4 years...

/digs up old post...

First post is dated DEC 1, 2000 damn just under two weeks to the semi-journal's 4th birthday. This was supposed to be a one year experiment. I think it's safe to say that I have been a bit lax in my cutting off everything.

thinks of everything that has changed in 4 years.

Damn... graduated school, moved from flag, started my career, bought a house, achieved some measure of personal peace after putting the demon known as emily out of my life.

ya know I think I'm going to shutter the other sight... the last post will be Dec 1, 2004 (maybe (hey it's my site I can do whatever I damn well please)) I enjoy this knowing that 2 (well soon to be a 4 as I send a email to a few people) I don't like knowing that anyone in my little world can stumble onto my piece of the internet. I like this it's just the people I want to see it... for better and worse... thick and thin... coke and beer... Star Wars Galaxies and Jump to light speed.

This is me.

A key ingredient of Guiness has to be....

Ya know I'm pretty convinced that a key ingredient of Guiness has to be sulphur... man I had a few Guiness last night (when I say a few I mean more then a couple but less then alot) and starting sometime around midnight last night and through 7:30 tonight every last fart has smelled like sulphur

And suddenly you stop... and try to think to yourself why oh why do I read this garbage ?

I always seem to have the best posts after I've spent the weekend hanging out with Curtis... probally has something to do with the fact that when I hang out with Curtis strange shit happens... like sulphur farts. But that is why Curtis is married to Krissy... she keeps his ass babysat so make sure nothing too bad happens to him... and if she's feeling kind me too!

One of these days I'm going to be returning that whole baby sitting thing whether it be by actually babysitting them or something of theirs (like a dog or something like that).

OK moving on... I've also decided that going to bars in Phoenix/Tempe is much more fun (for me at least) then bars in Vegas because I can breathe at the bars in Phoenix they are filled with smoke and not packed as tight as a can of sardines.

That and bars in Phoenix are a lot less pretenious then the bars in Vegas. I can go as my black t-shirt self and blend right in down in Phoenix.

Yeah Phoenix bars are defintly more my speed.

3 cheers for "Rula Bula"!

The computer incarnate

In Phoenix.... Curtis is rebuilding his box... I can feel space and time bending already.


He hasn't updated his drivers yet.... we should all be afraid very very very afraid.

A question for all you DATA freaks out there

So there I was in line at Hastings when I say the 2005 edition of the big book of movies (not the real name to protect the idiots who published it).

Why on earth would someone pay $24.95 for something that can be gotten off the internet for FREE.

Even if you don't have the internet at your house you are still coming out ahead if you drive you SUV that gets horrible gas mileage to the nearest internet station to do the reaseard and then go home!

Hell I can download that entire book... put into a SD Card... and put it in my iPaq and BAM! RIGHT THERE AT MY FINGERTIPS!. Next year when the 2006 version comes out I pay 5bucks and BAMMAGE AGAIN!

Do yourself a favor go listen to some Pink Floyd.

Got P.A.C.S.

You know when I took this promtion 6 months ago I knew there would be overtime involved... and I was told alot of overtime would be involved. I am know just begining to realize how much over time is involved.

I'm on the end of a 15 hour day at work. As I sit thinking about what I did while I have a beer and my beef bbq burrito. I think to myself... ya know I may be a dumbass but I'm a pretty smart dumbass. Let me explain.....

3 years ago when I started the current job I was brought in to work on a surgery charting system. Now mind you I was less then 3 months out of school and had only ever worked in a grocery store. I literrally went from checking grocries to learing how surgrey was done in the course of a week. That wasn't so bad my mom is a nurse so it wasn't totally new to me and I pick up pretty quick on things.

Flash forward to 6 months ago and the PACS administrator job lands in my lap... Now let me explain PACS to you... in it's most simpliest terms PACS is a way of taking x-rays (and x-ray related procedures) digitally and never printing a hard copy as a regular part of your work flow. Now to put this in perspective... we cannot take down the x-ray dept. ever. Oh and don't forget you still need to get ER orders read real quick.

That is in it's simpliest form that I can put it is PACS.

The thing that blows my mind is Nursing and x-ray have two diffrent lingo's and I'm speaking passable x-ray and passable nurse. Someday I amaze even my two brain cells.

OK beer is gone... time to get ready for bed and start again tommrow!

The end of the world as we know it. Or how I learned to stop worrying and just accept the Simpsons are just silly.

How's that for a title?

You know I'm very much of the thought that the Simpson's tree house of horror special has no real place on television after Halloween. And anymore it really has no place on the TV period. But that is just my thought.

Anyway I've been listening to Pearl Jam all weekend (which is somewhat proper since it's been gray and raining all day today) and I've decided that to me personally. Ten (the first album from 92) is not their best work. I think their best work is either "Yield" or "Riot Act" Those are my two favorite Pearl Jam Albums. Of course I'm probally the only person I know that tries to keep up with current Pearl Jam you know the whole no video thing.

The no video thing is a a real testament (at least to me) as to how good a group Pearl Jam is. It's been 10 years since their last commercially successful video and they still sell more records per album then most groups could ever hope to do over the course of their entire carreers. That is just my thought though. Most of (actually all from the last album) Peral Jam videos are mainly of the band playing their instruments. Nothing very flashy just something to put up on whatever music channel still plays music.

Tom Petty is on iTunes right now. I guess I'm just in a sedate mood at the moment.

WOOKIEES!!!

WOOKIEES THE NEW STAR WARS TRAILER HAS WOOKIEES!!!!!!

All hollow's event

You know I think Halloween is just fundemtially screwed up for the following reasons.

1. The simpson's tree house of horror is on next week... a full week after halloween and not to night.

2. I've had more then a few adult tricker-treaters. Granted they were with their kids but still...

3. I blew threw 5 bags of candy in 1.5 hours. I guess I was being to generous.


Yeah those are my gripes about halloween.

Milwaukee's Beast.....

Oh man.... there is just something so wrong about a beer buzz from Miller Lite.


It's not just wrong it's actually unholy.


Very unholy.


I think the only thing more unholy then a Milwaukee's Beast beer buzz is possibly the Cardnials winning the super bowl and possibly that Britney Spears hasn't posed nude in Playboy yet. It's gotta be a matter of time. It's just got to be.

At this point I will settle for Pink.

The secret to life lies within....

Your local Japense steak house... you know those joints where they cook the food right in front of you...mmm so good... .so much food... handy tip do not mix rice and beer..... goes POOOFFF in your stomach and then your full. Though I think what really did me in was the burger at lunch.

So yeah I like going to school in Milwaukee it's a pain in the ass to travel, but the food is worth it. I think the real secret is to come with a director of a deptartment that way you keep getting wined and dined.

Yeah it's cold... it's cold today like Kingman would be on it's worse day of winter. So that pretty much tells me right there why I live in Arizona and not the upper midwest. That and I have a severe distate for snow.

I saw a liscence plat on a New Beetle today that said "UNIXBUG" I thought it was very cool however it was from Utah so that means they probally worked for SCO and SCO is evil boys and girls.

So I have a number of friends blogs that I hit when I travel it helps with breaking up the boredom and since none of my Instant messenger accounts or email work I'm pretty much limited to this and the IRON boards for outside communication. Tonight I was making the rounds and Brandi typed the following " i wish i could be like tom and come up with really clever subjects. but nope." well Brandi I'm now going to provide you with the secret to my "clever subject lines"

"Let it flow" Pay no attention to who you may offend and just let what ever is on your mind out in a subeject. It also helps that I get copious amounts of this at work and on the IRON boards. That helps just remember if it offends someone then 10 other people found it funny. If it's your audience that is something else entierly.

Ok now it's time to work on left overs.

From the land of beer and cheese...

Well 24 hours in Milwaukee and what do I have to say for myself... well for one thing I've now had more alchol here in the last 3 hours then I did the entire week I was here before. Got to love traveling with clinical folks.

Kind of a intersting dynamic that goes on with clinical people, they are very friendly and work with each other and you get the feeling that they probally hang out together with each other on a regular basis outside of work. At least the one's I'm travelling with. Which is a stark contrast to myself who really just keeps to himself and doesn't pay much attention to anything. What can I say I'm a loner... alway have always will be (probally)

I don't know, I think being a loner is just a much apart of me as my love of beer and computers. I remember growing up that it used to drive me up the walls that my brother wouldn't leave me alone. Now it still drives me up the walls that he won't leave me alone. Just now he only drops by every couple of days and does not live in the next room over.

I think the biggest problem I've always had with the work that I do when it comes to working with other people is the generation gap. I think just relating to the older generation is the part that I have the most problems with. I see my self as their equal... they see me as a kid at least initall I don't know about after a while. For me it's just odd, damn my parents and their strong work ethic up brining.

I guess better to do this now then to be married with children and be doing all this traveling.

Of course I need to have a girlfriend first.

Saturday cleaning the mind and house

Saturday what a time to do nothing... but if you are me this saturday then you are cleaning and getting ready for a trip to Milwaukee.

I can't say I'm that excited about this trip I feel like I'm not wanted on it. I haven't gotten my conformation for place I'm staying. This is all on top of the fact that Milwaukee is pretty cold this time of year. OK check that I just went to the weather channel and it's no worse up there right now then it is in Flagstaff this time of year. Actually it was colder on my Elk hunt then it will be up there.

That is a little comforting.

I really don't know, I've had alot of time to think the last week and half and it just seems like I'm in high speed neutral at the hospital. I want to leave, at the same time though I don't want to leave something that is very familiar to me. I don't know if it's the hospital or Kingman itself. I really don't know anymore. I can't decide why I'm not happy, I have good friends who I think like me (hmmm maybe that is it right there), I had a girlfriend(s) (I don't think that will do anything to make me happier over the long term though a blow job sure does sound nice), A job I like (yes I know I was just bitching about the hospital but I do enjoy the work I do... though the people I work with border on just this side of ridiciouls from time to time).

I think it's time to start thinking some pretty big things over pretty hard.

And the hardware came knocking.

OK like I really need down time... I've been hunting for the last week, buy hey everyone has their own prefrence of what the like to do when then want to do nothing. My prefrence just happens to be to fart around with computers. It just so happens that I do that when I'm at work too. But I don't get burnt out on it when I'm at home.

Anyway so I was 3 fisting computers this morning (sad I know) I had my laptop going updating SWG and Mining in EVE. I had my main rig going it was dialed to Gentoo.org and had instructions listed for how to install Gentoo Linux (more on that later) I also in the background was surfing the Internet and was listening to Wil Wheaton's performance from Gnomdex. And then on my Linux box I was installing Gentoo Linux.

Let me talk to you about Gentoo Linux for just a moment. This is a true "geek" distro. There is no warm and fuzzy gui installer. It's all text based and comes off of a LiveCD of course that is the easy way to do it. The hard way involves a floppy and ALOT of time. I chose the easy way. I'm a geek but by god Jim I'm not superman. So there I was happily compiling my Kernel this morning (man that almost sounds like geek code for something else). And my Linux box froze up.... What the hell goes I? I can't reboot it since I will lose my install and have to start all over (which is not a option since it's taken me damn near 4 hours to get to this point). I wait for a minute and everything is responding again. Okay cool... I try to recompile... this time I have a kernal crash... crap now I have to reboot. So I reboot the box and "Tempature Warning" flashes at the bottom of the screen very quickly. So I reboot again and dump into BIOS and check my CPU tempature. 233F Uh that is not right.... normally a CPU will run at 120F maybe 140F on a hot system but 233F is just asking for trouble. So I dump out of the BIOS and continue to boot to see if my suspicions are true. Yes they are true, the mysterious crashes and lock ups that my linux box has been suffering for the last couple of weeks are a direct result of the CPU tempature being to high. So I turn off the machine and now there it sits.

At this point I'm at a cross roads with my Linux Machine. I can 1. Repair it and bring it back online 2. Forget about and it and fully move everything the Linux box used to do to my old box (Prometheus) and scrap the Linux box. 3. Forget everything and just run off of one box.

3 is out of the question. I'm more inclined to do 1 over 2 just because it will take some time and I like having a Linux box to play with. That and the fact I run my second SWG account off of my old box has something to do with it as well.

The joys of being a computer geek.

Back from the edge of eternity...

OK so I'm back from the edge of eternity... where I did nothing, because the edge of eternity is not anywhere near here. How did I get there you ask? Good question I'm still working on that one.


Anyway it's now time to fill every one up with the love and joy that is Tom. First off congrats to Krissy and Curtis who got married earlier this month. Krissy looked the blushing bride part perfectly and Curtis... Well Curtis looked his goofy damn self. Only in a tux, and he is kind of tall so he didn't look like a penquin or anything. Though if he gained a little more weight... hmmmm

Any congrats to Krissy and Curtis.

Next up... Elk hunting. Actually not so much hunting as it was fighting the cold and wet, walking around the middle of nowhere Arizona looking for elk that we know are there but can't find them to save our lives. Yeah that actually just about sums it up. I had fun. If nothing else it was a week off of work and quality time with dad.

OK this isn't supposed to be what is going on in my life it's supposed to be what's running through my head.

Even in a group I'm still a loner.

So I'm playing EVE (www.eve-online.com) right now and I'm going around from system to system picking stuff up. This in of itself is not that exciting. It's not exciting for two reasons. 1. It's my Alternate Character (or what those in the know call a "Alt") and 2. It's all pretty safe space so I'm good to go there. I think what I like best about EVE is that it's a relaxed game that I can come in and out of at will... basically the ALT character does all the grunt work of mining and making money while the main character just hangs out. I know it sounds complicated but... ok it doesn't sound complicated. If anything it's just a way to kill time.

As for the title of this post... my Guild has a EVE team... but I'm not very active in it mainly because I can't stand PvP (Player vs Player) combat, and again with the whole liking being a loner thing. Doesn't work so well in Star Wars Galaxies, the whole loner thing... so I'm a little more social in that but right now Star Wars I only play when I have a large block of known free time.

I really think that EVE is a microcosim of the rest of my life right now. I feel like I'm in neutral with my personal life. Don't get me wrong my profesional is good... personal life is pretty good. I have friends who like me and geninuely enjoy being around me. I just need something more...

and I don't mean a dog.

The sublime joy that is blogger...

Know what? I really dig this blogger format of doing my writing... it works very well with my train of thought and how disjointed I really can be. I think the part I like best is the fact that it's all web based and works across multiple platforms. Now that I really dig.... Then again I'm a computer guy and I dig just about anything that tickles my funny bone.

So I guess that means that blogger tickles my funny bone?

OK moving on.

Downloading the Jump to Lightspeed Beta for Star Wars Galaxies... but that is all I can really say at this point. And actually according to the NDA I'm not really supposed to say that.

and with that I'm done... I know not much but it's monday so you can't expect great things out of me.

How much is that stripper in the window?

Did a bachelor party this weekend... good friend of mine getting married... had to end his single life in style. It was a good time.

The highlight of the evening (actually night we started at 4pm and finished at 4am) was the strip club. First time in a strip club so I did what came totally naturally to me... I looked at boobies the whole time... now everyone say this with me "BOOBIES GOOD!" Ok there we go... yes boobies good. I have to say that I was immpressed with most of the boob jobs I saw in there but I gotta say I like the natural stuff better... there is more jiggle and lets face it I like a little jiggle in my boobies.

But damn that first lap dancer had a nice set real or now who cares. Then again so did the blondes...

So many women so little money for enough lap dances for the bachleor party guy.

Things that will just kill your ego... or at the very least make you feel good about yourself.

How's that for a title? I think I can get used to this whole blogger thing... I kinda feel bad for the people who are going by my website, and not finding anything. Then again the fact that I have told no one about this newer and "improved" blog may have something to do with it. Not having reinstalled Frontpage may have something to do with it as well.

Anyway, I've been in a real mood as of late (last 48 hours or so) I can't really decide what is causing it but I do know that it has stirred many thoughts feelings and what nots in me.

I think the thing that is pissing me off the most is still Emily 7 months later I'm still pissed that I chased this girl for FIVE YEARS finally get her and she bases our entire realationship upon whether or not I will pick and move for her. You know I thought we had a real realtionship, hell I thought we were going to get married. Intead the bitch dumps me because I won't move and I don't talk to her like I used to. It pisses me off, still! I know I shouldn't let little shit like that make me mad or otherwise raise my blood pressure but this has really been building inside of me for a while now and I need to get it out and your the fucker reading this so fuck off.

What would I say to her right now if Emily called? The following "Hello, sorry to hear you didn't get into grad school. I got promoted, was employee of the month, built a new computer, made a ton of new friends in IRON, and have rediscovered who I am. Thank you for liberating me from you and letting me get on with my life."

IF I could go back and do something diffrently what would I do? I would go back to July 28, 2003. I wouldn't have gone to Emily's house I would have stayed home and waited for Dorothea. We had our problems but what we had was real. That is the other thing that pisses me off to this day is I never gave Dorothea a fair shake because I was still carrying a flame/torch/whatever for Emily. Honestly Dorothea deserved way better then I treated her. I really feel bad how I left things however that is in the past and I have to let these things go.

Hopefully this is a step to that goal. You know what really is the killer? I passed up several hot women in school because of Emily, now that I'm kicking myself over.

AAAHHHHHH

fucking bitch.

Ok is out of me?

it's like a leak that will not end. I'm sure there is more in there but it doesn't want to come out right now.

Now if only I hadn't had taken her to Disneyland I wouldn't be calling it the most evil place on the planet.

What a differnce 36 hours will make.

OK so it wasn't some weird goofy thing (goofy bad not goofy funny) that was making my HD go all Wacky. I've traced it down to the actual Southbridge RAID controller chip on the Motherboard. Neither old nor new drivers are seeming to fix it.

So I'm going to do what a normal computer type person will do... I order a SATA hard drive controller card. If that doesn't work then I will have a 200GB hard drive for sale.

So while I was dicking around with my computer last night I heard this "click" and then a second later "whirrrrrrrrrrrrr" and then nothing. I look over to my LINUX box and it's no longer on. OK time for a little background. My LINUX box is now about 3 years old, being state of the art 4 years ago. I built it for about $300 and some spare parts I had lying around. The only problem that box has ever had was the motherboard goes goofy (goofy bad) after about 840 hours of uptime (thats about 35 days) . This box wasn't just sitting there either I actually had it doing stuff; such as Web Server, Mail Server, Secure telnet Box, experimination, spare parts, looking for aliens, looking for a cure for cancer, dns resolution. Oh and don't forget the most important part... it was my main file server till about 3 months ago. Now it's just my main porn server.

Now that everyone is on the same page, I start trouble shooting.... now given the problems I've been having with "Heritic" as of later I started to think that maybe just maybe it was the motherboard. Wait though I've eaten a couple of power supplies on this puppy... Lets try that first... plug in Power Supply from other computer. "Click WHIRRRRR" ah it works.

The good news is it's easy to fix. The bad news it's a couple of days before I get the Power Supply since I'm not feeling like paying more then $20 for it.

Ok so that is a summary of all my computer problems for the last 36 hours. I know tons of fun.. then again your that goofy pair of eyeballs that just read it. (goofy funny, not goofy bad)

Why LINUX is Grand, Windows Sucks, and more music...

OH my oh my oh my.... let me tell you about my experince with Windows (Windows XP PRO) and my 200 GB Western Digital Hard-Drive...


I bought a brand new WD 200GB hard drive about a month ago now to do what ever it is that hard drives do... I think their main function in life is to store porn and recipies.... so I gladly filled my WD 200GB with porn and recipies... and then my computer died. A sudden painfull death. So sudden and So painful that I had to send the motherboard and CPU back to get replacements. I got the replacments back and once I got the new stuff working the 200GB HD just stopped working.

And stopped working in not a good way either... so I do up the RMA stuff from Western Digital and today I recieved my new WD 200GB HD... only this one doesn't work either. It was manufactured on the 21st of September. I tend to think there may be something wrong with my mother board.

So now I'm booted in under LINUX and guess what kids... I can see my HD (which I can do under windows too) however I can also interact with my HD as well (que stunned silence and crickets)

Needless to say I'm a little mad at Micro$oft right now...

notice "l33t" speak... must be the primal script kiddie coming out in me.

Games Games and did I mention Games?

Ah the sweet sublime bliss that is a RPG... yep good old role playing game. You can take on the persona of whoever you want and away you go.

Of course I can never do anything the easy way... I have to do it online and do it with a MMORPG so of course I have a huge investment of time into a character so I'm emotinonally involved... actually come to think of it I'm more emotinally involved with my Star Wars Character then I was with Emily at the end... Hmmm I don't know if that is wrong or not.

So I find my self now trying other games firs there was Star Wars Galaxies... not bad first real RPG that I've played in a long time. I've enjoyed the social aspects of it all.

Now I've picked up a game called EVE (www.eve-online.com) I don't find myself playing that as much but I still play it quite a bit. I need something with some more speed to it.. alot more speed. I'm now looking at Planet Side (www.planetside.com) for no reason other then to try it out and see how well FPS works in a MMORPG enviroment.

Great here we go again...

Deja vu vu?

Still working on the whole wedding mix thing... still very rough. Expect it to be that way for a couple of days...

I just finished editing down a section of Moby songs from the "Play" album.... I was having flash backs to driving back and forth between Kingman and Flag.....

I miss Flag, not as much as I used to but I still miss it.

Music....

Music is a funny thing... it sets the mood, seems to give defitinon and body to a event. Music can draw a memory to an emotion... a trip to disney land with the ex-girl friend that dumped you a month later... yeah fun stuff like that. No one said the emotions had to be good ones :)

So it is with great trepidation and I guess honor that I have agreed to help a friend with the music for his wedding. Normally I wouldn't do this type of thing but there are two things that made me say yes.

1. His entire collection of music is Punk and Techno...
2. If I don't help Curtis's sorry ass I don't know who will.

So I've been doing this whole creating a playlist thing all afternoon... I'm actually writing this while listening to a very very rough cut. So far I like it.

I guess the most dificult part about this is trying to find stuff that won't get my balls ripped off by Krissy. I.e. try to make it something meaningfull and at the same time unique.

I would be lying if I said I hadn't thought about what I want played at my own wedding.... though at the rate I'm going that is a LONG ways off.... it's ok though this gives me a couple of practice rounds.

Yeah no pressure... this is just one of those singular most important things in their lives things....

Tom breaks in...

Just a quick test to see how it all looks.