You will never know...

What the truth to anything is until you have looked yourself square in the face and have made peace with yourself.

Have I done that?

NO.

Will I?

I don't know I going to have to get back to you on that one.

However now in the mean time I bring you the drivel that is my writing. It would appear that a few of you have missed it. More like one of you has so guess that is not really a majority. The fact that anyone reads this still boggles my mind.

So I've decided that myspace is particularly evil. It's even more evil when a friend subscribes to a music group. Now granted that in of it self is not a bad thing. Let me present the following evidence. I have 14 friends (rough number I don't know how many I actually have as I'm to lazy to look and I'm trying to prove a point). Since this one "friend" joined a group I have gotten no less then 40 friend requests. Since Friday of last week (this is being written on a Monday evening).

So what is the take away from this? If you join a group make damn sure I'm not in your top 8.

I have nothing else to bitch about. So I'm going to leave you with the bewilderment that is my new TV.

CHEERS!

Don't you...

Whish I posted a bit more?


NO?

Tough Shit!


I will return when I have something meaningfull to say.

NOOOOOOOOO!!!

NNNNNoooooooo!!!!!


I just kicked off the pod cast to episode 20 of the second season of battle star galactica!!!!


Ricker was so disturbed when he heard it that he jumped to death (again)


At least I was able to stop it before I heard anything!


P.s. not much else is going on... can you tell?

Owe... it burns the flesh!

Holy crap it's March already?  

 

I think I've been playing a little to much Eve....

 

I don't' know is 4 hours a night to much?

 

Some people would say yes.... I say... it's either play a game that utilizes my mind and forces me to interact with people to achieve a common goal.  Or veg out and read a book / watch television. 

 

That is the thing that gets me about online gaming... people are very down on it... a lot of the comments I get tend to be of the flavor of

 

-It's anti-social

 

-It's violent

 

-Gaming makes you dumb... or some how seem less intelligent.

 

Anti-social.... This is a two edged sword here.... in the traditional sense of the Console game, yes it's very anti-social.  It's you VS the computer.  In the world of MMO's and Online gaming it actually very social, your main opponents are real people and for years now games have included apps that let players speak to each other.  Most groups however then to use Ventrilla or Team-speak as their preferred method of communication and use the in game voice client for working with mixed groups.   As a direct result of the MMO's I play, I have made several friends.  (Friends defined as people I would like to hang out with on my personal time) (Personal time being defined as the most valuable of my time and for me to use at my discretion)

 

Violence... yes some games are violent.  It's a not a graphical violence (outside of the realm of the FPS).  It's more of a cartoonish violence.  One could argue that the board game Battleship is violent, or any of the various versions of Risk that are out there.  Violence in the MMO's is no worse then what you would find in a Old school Saturday morning cartoon.

 

Gaming makes you dumb?  I still don't understand why people feel this way.   I can read 1,000 books and have all the knowledge in the world.  If I can't communicate that knowledge, well who is dumb now?  This point goes back to my first point "Gaming is Anti-social".  You can turn your mind onto cruise control while reading a book or watching tv just as easily as you can playing Tetris.  You can also have alot of brain activity while watching tv or reading a book.  The difference is in the MMO you have alot of the cognitive higher brain functions going on then you do when participating in other forms of entertainment. 

 

Ok that is my diatribe... so hopefully this little f-list blogger will move to the E-list some day.

 

Your normal drivel will return with the next post.

The more things.....

Having gone to Kingman and back several times now it's interesting to see how people act towards you when you show up after having been gone for several months.

1st time, like you never left. You chat life is ok


2nd time you return, People are more chatty.... folks offer to buy you food and/or alcohol and they aren't related to you.

3rd times + (and after 6 months)-- where the hell have you been and how have you been doing? You moved? holy shit your kidding! Where too? What are you doing ? Are you married?

The constant barrage of questions.... It's different but it's just a fact of life coming from a small town.

Of course it is heart warming to know that the girl scout troop that is in my old neighborhood was sad to see me go... Mainly because I bought so many cookie's.

Now for phase two of my world domination plan... yoda at his wisest.

Bring the pain (again)

First item of business.... for all of you who were watching the super bowl with me.  There is no "Code black" at SHC.  When you google the term "code black in hospitals"  you get no one defintion.  In short, it's a nice bit of hollywood fiction that was probally explained once you tuned into the show.   It does appear that more then a few hospitals out there use code black but there is no one standard definiton.

For all of you who didn't watch the superbowl with me... well now you know what we talk about when I watch the superbowl. Hospital codes... also known as work!

Ok we really didn't do much work talk as we were all to busy critquing the commercials and some of the officating... yes folks you know it's bad when I'm going "hey that wasn't a touch down was it?"

I was sorry to see the Seahawks lose but at the same time I'm glad the cardinals won't be facing the "Defending world champions".  Not that it would make a diffrence one way or another.  

You know it's bad when all you want out of your team is a season at .500.  That is all I'm after, no playoffs, no superbowl.  Just a plain old average year.   If they could do that I would be happy enough. Of course that would also require a team that could show up for more games then not.   Lets face it even when the cardinals do show up they tend to be not quite with it.

Here is something for you all to chew on... I wonder if there is a significant bump in the number of births that occour in about mid November of each year. 

food for thought.

Like a blister in the sun...

Saw the Violent Femmes in concert tonight.


They rock... I'm converted. That's two in a row that Cody has converted me to.


Highlights include

* Beer bottle as method of playing bass guitar

* Crowd knowning all the words to all the songs and singing good portions of most of the songs

* Conch shell used more then once during set.

* Opening act did DMX song with banjo and ukallee... (you know that guitar looking thing that tiny Tim always played)

Lowlight.... the screaming girl behind me.... I hope she is good in bed because that is all she has going for her.

Smooth Operator... Operated Effectivly.

So all day at work I was thinking about things I wanted to write about once I got home.... you know a hard day of working on PACS Stuff will do that to you. I get home... I have a beer... and now I'm drawing a blank.

I think that the drive home is relaxing me to much.

That or having a pitch black beer that is not guiness on a empty stomach was not the best thing that I could have done.


Either way... I can't think of anything to talk about other then that damned my space site. Though I did find my Field Engineer from Kingman when we were installing the PACS system up there. It was good to see that she is doing well.

Actually Kingman has come up in alot of discussions this week at work with regards to PACS systems and coworkers at SHC getting ready to leave. It's kind of funny, when you are working at a place every one makes it sound like the world will come to a screaching halt if anything would happen to you. That was the feeling that I got from some folks when my decsion to leave KRMC was made public. Other people seemed to care less.

6 months later... I know I made the right choice (yeah like it was really that hard). I've found that I really didn't think about KRMC almost at all in the last 6 months and it's only been this week that people have activly brought it up in conversation. It's odd to talk about KRMC in the past tense so dismissvley. I guess the really surprising part is that the only contact I've had with KRMC has been the X-ray department. Which considering that is where I basically spent my last year I guess it's not that surprising.

It was no secret that I was unhappy. I don't know if it was Kingman or if it was KRMC. Part of me thinks it was one... the other part thinks it was the other... and yet a third part thinks it was both things. I know that there are loose threads from my former life there that will never be cleaned up. I think about those threads from time to time too. They are just that though... threads... threads makeup the cloth of the person (hey that's pretty good I should drink and write more often) Eventually those couple of loose threads will get woven into the cloth and they will just be apart of my life instead of dangling out there for me to look at glaringly every time I think about her.

Catharsis? I don't think I really have one at this time... actually I don't even know if I know what "Catharsis" is... I know has something to do with the projection of emotions or feelings onto something else.

There is something else that has happened since I moved... that whole thoughts and feelings things... holy crap that next thing you know I will taking about retirment plans and what I would like to do as a small venture capital firm.

Oh no... I've grown up...

Let's all discover....

ROOT BEER!

I was at the safeway down the street from my house yesterday and I'm going through the aisles I've gotten all of the stuff on my list now I'm seeing if there is anything that just strikes me as a gotta have it item. And there in the junk food / soda aisle is the greatest root beer ever devised by man.

Henry Weinhards Draught Style Head Root Beer. Seriously this is the best root beer in the world. think of it as a micro brew of root beer! Weinhards is to A&W what Fat Tire is to Coors!


Wow how about that last posting... never before have I gotten that many responses... which really is kind of sad... I talk about alot of diffrent random things who would have that a post about myspace would generate that much chatter.

So things to not talk about with people
Politics
Religion
Pizza
My Space

I guess I should also add to that list "mythbusters" is it really true or not. Lets face that one though it is all very true!

Maldiction and their terminal points...

So tonight I'm in something of a confessional mood... and I don't know how some of you are going to take this...

Some of you may abondon me others of you may find a new way to connect with me.


I have had a addiction for a while now and I'm just now coming to terms with it... No it's not gaming... anyway that's not an addiction it's a way of life.


Somewhere along the line I became addicted to myspace... sad I know.

Other people have problems with drugs, cars, alcohol, nicotine, the list goes on.

What are my addcitions... Freaking social websites and LINUX.

I really have to wonder where my parents screwed up... by all counts I should be on the 3rd marriage and have barely gotten out of high school... nope not me... had no problem getting through high school and college. Not married no kids... just a bunch of computers.

Somedays I confuse myself... today is one of those days... I'm done now go talk amongst yourselves while I go play a game...

Devilish?

According to MSNBC, about 50 people died in Saudi Arabia during the annual ritual of throwing stones at the devil. Apparently a stampede broke out when somebody tripped on luggage. That sounds like a poorly conceived punch line, but it actually happened. And it isn't the first time. In 1990, 1,426 people died in a stampede while throwing stones at the very same devil. (No word as to whether luggage was involved.) And in 2004, the devil killed another 244 stone-throwers the same way. By my count, the score is Devil 1,720 and Believers 0.

This is on the same day that the guy who shot John Paul II was freed. Clearly, the devil is having a good day.

I think it's interesting that when you pray to God for a new bike, it hardly ever materializes in your bedroom within seconds. But when you throw stones at the devil, quite often you get an immediate response. That's an example of good customer service.

Just some food for thought there....

Incidental aliens and the way's of traffic

So what do I think of living in the valley 6 months after moving down?   Well the traffic bites, but I knew that walking into it.  Other then that I have no complaints.  Which I have to say is really a first for me.  Normally by now I'm bitching about something.  Nope not a thing.   Just traffic, and lets face it when you move to any city traffic is almost always a given.

Something on a bit more personal note.  A person I have known for several years now has had a rather large tragedy occur in her life.  It was rather sudden and really no one saw it coming.   I find the whole situation interesting... this person was basically abandoned by every one they knew as a direct result of their significant other.  I always tended to float on the outskirts of the circle of friends along with a couple of other folks and knew them more from their brother then anything else.  I didn't so much abandon as faded into the background.  Point is I wasn't around and have been watching the events unfold from a somewhat impartial view of the 3rd person.

Anyway getting back to the subject at hand I've been watching this situation over about the last week now.  Not through email or gossip but from first person accounts on blogs.  It's a different way to watch someone deal with a great loss in their life.  As blogging becomes more and more prevalent through what is effectively the geezer generation on the Internet my observation has been that the blogs have become less personal and more on selling one's self to the outside world. I don't know if it's because there are more people out there doing the blogging thing or if it's because I'm reading the wrong blogs I don't know.   Where am i trying to get to in all of this?  I really don't know.

Interesting observations but, it's to early to really be making much sense of anything really and I can't pass a personal judgement on anyone for they anything that they may or may not have done until after I have taken a good long look at myself.

The laughing down the hall

You know there is a lot to be said for prep work. Prep work in all aspects of life… home, job, night out with friends. Yes a little time investing in drinking water and eating some food goes a long way to making sure that you don’t feel craptastic the next day.



So this is 2006? I’m still waiting for the meal in a pill and the moon base with a black monolith… that was supposed to show up what? 5 years ago? I guess that is what you get when you get people from 35 years ago writing about what life was supposed to be like 5 years ago. We still have a shot at a Soviet / American stand off in the Pacific over something… what do you mean the Soviets aren’t around anymore? They have been gone for 15 years? Where have I been?



Thank god we have the Xbox 360… you know don’t spend to much money on cancer research and working on a cure for aids. But really we need Hi-Def games in our homes.



I knew I should have taken the red pill.

Ahem....

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Desperatly Seeking Serenity.....

Having lived in small towns up until 6 months ago I never really had a concept of the "Christmas Shopping Season" until this year. Before this year my concept was... there were alot of people on the weekends and the weekdays were a little heavy. Turns out the weekdays are almost as bad as the weekends. Holy crap it took me 45 minutes to get out of Best Buy last night.

I don't mind Best Buy, but I don't love it either.

Anyway... yesterday Serenity was released on DVD. I know you all saw it and all already own it. (If you don't stop reading NOW and go buy it!). Anyway I thought I would go to Target and buy Serenity since I needed to get a few other things and didn't want to deal with best buy. Well turns out that target is a mad house this time of year as well. But that is beside the point.

I find my way back to the DVD's.... find the New Releases... and there is a giant hole in the new releases and I don't see Serenity. I look at the tag... the hole belongs to Serenity. Well that makes me feel good, lots of people have already bought serenity... I however have not and I must own it.

I bring my mind into focus... I must venture to the dreaded... BEST BUY! *que ominous like music*

I goto Best Buy... it's busy as all get out.... I find my way to the New releases... they have Serenity!

Only 3 copies...

2 of them full screen....

1 Widescreen...

I snatch one of them.

And with that I got the last Widescreen copy of Serenity in my area. I'm proud of myself and I know more will come in.

good times... good times.